Radiate. Shine. Beam. So I took a spin class in Paris this morning at Dynamo Cycling. It felt quite euphoric to be back in the saddle. Yes, euphoric. It reminded me of the days when I was a “SpinHard,” following SoulCycle instructor Rique Uresti around and pining for his approval from the front row.
I was going through the first phase of my six-year breakup. (Yeah, you heard that right.) While spinning my heart out I’d feel the pain, the anger, the hurt, the fear. At the same time I felt the joy, the freedom, the power. I’d hear each song and feel the lyrics in my bones. I’d smile, I’d laugh. I’d cry. I literally spun my way to happy over the course of a year. Aaannnd then he came back for a minute. Whoops.
Riding the spin bike today and hearing Rihanna belt out “What Now,” I felt a rush of emotion come over me. Even after all this time, it’s never easy to hear, “I don’t love you.” But I’m figuring it all out. I’m doing the best I can. I’ve truly found my happy. The key to all of it is that I get back in that saddle. And this morning I literally did. And it was awesome.
I’ve got this. Droite. Gauche. Droite. Gauche.