Why is Everything Wrong?

As soon as 2018 began, things didn’t feel right. My boyfriend and I rang in the new year with one of our biggest arguments yet. I felt uncomfortable around my closest friends. My knee hurt from twisting it while trying to learn how to ski. My grays were in full force and reminding me of that ticking clock. I started a job that invaded my dreams and, unfortunately, my happiness. I looked around and wondered, “Why is everything wrong?”

As I was dealing with this sadness earlier today, I couldn’t help but wonder if it was me. Was I calling this into my life? Was I doing something wrong? And just as I began to question if I was a terrible person, someone I’m friends with on social media accidentally sent a message to me that was meant for someone else…but it was about me. “Something is seriously wrong with her, “ she wrote. This wasn’t a note of concern. That was made clear when she followed it with something even harsher.

I can’t tell you how much that hurt to read.

The thing is, you cannot find peace by avoiding life and moping all day long. It’s during such times that people are tested, their willpower pushed to the limits. Moments like these require as much focus as possible. Sometimes these are the things that need to happen to lead you to something better. To remember who you are and to honor that beautiful person. To feel grateful for this life. To reset those goals. To feed your soul and take care of yourself.

Eat the chocolate. Drink the wine. Take the bath. Pull out the yoga mat. Surround yourself with beauty. Slow down and remember what life is truly about…happiness. And the thing to always keep in mind is that sadness has never, ever, not even once, lasted. The sun always comes up tomorrow.

Now, if you’ll excuse me…there’s some wine and chocolate calling my name.

*This post is simply a reminder that we all go through stuff. Everyone is fighting a battle you know nothing about. No one life is perfect. Those posts on social media aren’t the full picture. So be kind to others and most importantly, be kind to yourself. Hugs. xofi

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