As soon as 2018 began, things didn’t feel right. My boyfriend and I rang in the new year with one of our biggest arguments yet. I felt uncomfortable around my closest friends. My knee hurt from twisting it while trying to learn how to ski. My grays were in full force and reminding me of… Read More Why is Everything Wrong?
I’ve been hearing much talk about how 2017 has been a terrible year. It seemed like every way we turned, the world was falling apart. Our lives were changing and the future seemed grim. There was a sense of restlessness and helplessness, a sense of exhaustion. It was full of highs, lows, and all the… Read More 2017 and Me
Cheers. Cheers to a year full of momentous ups and monumental downs. Cheers to being better for it. Cheers to the travels, the adventures, the risks. Cheers to ringing in the year on a snowmobile and wrapping it up on the beach. Cheers to Burning Man! Cheers to the late nights, the early mornings. Cheers to the music… Read More Cheers to Us
Two years ago, I was supposed to be spending Christmas on a beach in Mexico. With him. Instead, I sat on my couch feeling stunned and heartbroken, trying to figure out what happened to my happily ever after. Today, I’m celebrating Christmas in Mexico. On the beach. Alone. By myself. As a strong, confident, single woman.… Read More So This Is Christmas
“Only those who risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go.” T.S. Eliot At the beginning of November, I told my friend, Laura, that I was over this whole dating thing. I had tried Bumble at the start of the summer. Dated my first online match ever for about four months.… Read More I’ll Surf With You
I wanted to share a piece that I wrote almost exactly three months ago. I wrote it when someone in my life was giving me a hard time. I didn’t post it because I was afraid of what you would think of me. I didn’t post it because it’s about hate. I have a confession to make.… Read More Mad. Love.
You deserve the opportunity to make every day the most beautiful day of your life. Last week, I said YES to a Dominican Republic getaway with friends. Believe it or not, I almost didn’t go. I didn’t feel like I deserved it. I hadn’t earned it. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that the guilt I… Read More Live Beautiful
The soul always knows what to do to heal itself. The challenge is to silence the mind. – Caroline Myss “Stop saying ‘yes,’” they say. “You need to move on,” he says. “Slow down,” she says. “Sleep more.” “If you don’t like it, then don’t work here,” she said. “I’m sorry you’re still dealing with that,” they… Read More Nothing
I wish he could see that I’m trying. That I have this new life over here and that I’m trying. I wish he could see that I didn’t ask for any of this. This wasn’t my undoing. And that all I’ve done was what I could do, which was my best. I wish he could… Read More I Wish He Could See
We’ve all been through a lot lately. The shock of this past week’s events have me sitting silent, trying to figure out where and how I, Fi, can help create the change we need. It’s been hard to watch people just like you and me act so violently, be taken from this world so mercilessly, and… Read More Unanswered Prayers